Archive | Relationships RSS feed for this section

“How can I do that?”

Everything shifted today. His PSA is rising slightly but significantly enough to warrant an added medication. The progression continues – what he calls “a ticking time bomb inside me with no way to get it out.” Denial of the inevitable breaks into consciousness and plummets me into a visceral depression of mind and body. How [...]

Read full storyComments { 1 }

Another Test

Here I am again with a new catheter in my arm, drinking my 1000 mls of some cold red liquid before my CAT-SCAN. Much has happened in the three months since the last time I was at Sloan Kettering to test to see how aggressively my prostate cancer is attacking my body. Suzanne and I [...]

Read full storyComments { 1 }
Who can part from a friend without shedding a tear

Advice to a Friend with Critical Illness

The cell call confirmed our worst fears. “It’s not breast cancer” said our best friend’s daughter. My initial reaction was relief. “Thank God” I said. Then before I heard her next words “NO! Not good!” I knew it was worse. Days before we had discovered that something had spread to five places in our best [...]

Read full storyComments { 2 }

Postcard from Provincetown

Richard and I have been under much stress and when my cousins invited us to visit them, I hoped that the four of us would get to know each other better and that Richard would come to love a place that has always enchanted me (and that has all happened)! More on our visit in [...]

Read full storyComments { 0 }

Vulnerability in the middle of the night

Last night I had a nightmare. I walked into a room where my very weak mother was in bed. She started pointing toward a closet, suggesting there was someone watching us who was dangerous. I began trying to decide how to make an emergency call but without being stopped. I awoke from this dream very [...]

Read full storyComments { 1 }